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How I Feel Today... by ElsonWong How I Feel Today... by ElsonWong
First and foremost, despite being a generally happy and outgoing person in real life (whether I'm at home with my family or at work with my colleagues), I feel that there's something in my brain telling me something otherwise.

I've only experienced this strange feeling in me for the past few nights. Why now?

I don't know... I know for sure that I'm living a very happy life. Financially I'm taken care of, I know I work hard to make a living (and work at an entertaining place where I get paid decently), I'm living with some of the best families around and I got friends from around the world who continue to inspire me in what they do.

So what has been missing in my life? Why do I feel like something is 'Black and White' at the moment?

I think I'm at an age where I'm starting to seriously consider getting a partner and be in relationship, get married and have family and kids (I'm going to turn 27 this year). But hold on a minute Elson, didn't you say you enjoy the single life? I do. But just lately I've been thinking about stuff... And it's weird why I'm feeling a little 'bittersweet' at the moment.

Is it a male instinct to feel the need to be with that someone special, a girl whom you can share with them your love and care for years to come? Is my mind telling me that I have a body that can be used to share pleasure with that girl and tell them just how thankful I am to be their one? Am I feeling like I want to be a family man and have kids that I can be proud to share with my family and my partners?


Big words Elson, but easier said than done, yes.

Anyways that's how I felt for the past few nights. But the question again comes to mind - why now? And more importantly why do I feel bittersweet about it?

Well I just find myself picky with the person I want to be with. And to quickly sum it up, I find that the girls I like and admire are pretty much beyond my geographical reach.

In other words the girls I find attracted to are overseas and it's all discovered upon through my time spent working on special hobbies and projects online (whether it be on deviantART, Youtube, Sonic community websites etc...).

What's bittersweet about it is I know it just won't likely to happen, even though I want to make something work - I just feel that from experience and from logic - it just won't work. I'm scared to even go there cuz I don't want to be someone to possibly hurt someone's feelings if things don't go according to plan. I lack real life 'relationship' experiences because I have yet to go out on a date yet - and that's a fact (and it's not because I don't want to, I just didn't find someone I find special yet here/locally).

But yeah that sketch is a reflection of what I've written for the past five to ten minutes, and strangely enough I feel a little happier expressing it for once.

Keep on inspiring everyone! There are some very special people out there and I just want to thank them for their creativity, brilliance and grace in just... Well... 'Sharing'.
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Maishul Featured By Owner Mar 31, 2012
I know the feeling T.T
I could get a girlfriend, but the problem is the girls here are sluts or they are obsessed with rave partys and smoking weed, and either loud and annoying or are just drama queens about every single thing.
I wish I had a girl who could touch my heart, who's sweet kind of charming, Y DO THEY NOT EXIST D:<
I know I'm only 15, but even if I didn't want a relationship, I would still be wondering, seriously, what happened to that sort? D:
So sometimes I think it just won't happen, even now, despite how much I dream for it, it seems to be just a fantasy, sometimes I think I may just give up on any sort of love, I'm not making "a big deal about it even though I'm young", but it's true right? What they've done to us teenagers? Geez x.x
EchoChase Featured By Owner Mar 15, 2012   Digital Artist
Have you ever thought about seeking out someone who is your opposite? Don't seek someone who has to like everything you like, just look for a few things you have in common. After all it's down to chemistry at the end of the day. I went out with my boyfriend because I knew we shared an interest in anime (well that and he said he liked me lol!!). The anime doesn't actually have much impact on our relationship because we actually went to the cinema to watch Prince of Persia which was a video game film which related to our interest in games. We now live together and whilst I like art, he likes games. I'm a rubbish cook but I'm better with the bills whereas he can cook brilliantly (which is perfect for me). We work together as a team enjoy each others company, sharing experiences regardless of our likes and dislikes and most of all we compromise. You always have to be willing to compromise!!

Relationships really aren't black and white and sometimes it's better to find people who are your opposite than someone who is your identical because frankly that can get very boring, very quickly. You also just have to get yourself out there and find someone, they won't find you if they don't know you exist.
ElsonWong Featured By Owner Mar 15, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Heya Angelina! First and foremost congrats on continuing a wonderful relationship with your partner! Secondly thanks for the practical advice. :)

I've heard this one many a time from my friend Adam - the quote that sums it up is "Opposites Attract". ^_^

I'm in the process of being open-minded now. In fact I'm rather keen on a girl at work but I just have to keep in touch with her outside of work times. Nevertheless thanks again for your feedback! ^^
EchoChase Featured By Owner Mar 17, 2012   Digital Artist
You should check with your work regulations and see if a relationship with another colleague is allowed or not. Most work places don't like it as it can cause many issues from potential thefts of stock/money or mixing home life issues to much with work. I'm not saying everyone's like that but from a companies point of view it can and does happen. If you Manager is happy with it then you're okay, usually better if you work in different departments so that you don't spend to much time interacting in work ours on a personal level.

Myself and my boyfriend work at the same store but we also work in different departments, our relationship is known by all other staff and the Manager is somewhat happy with it, we're smart enough to keep work and home life separate. However we can be told and moved to different stores if Head Office wanted. Still there's not much that they can do really other than that because not so long back open couple working in the same store. Having said that I'm still looking for a new job.

Anyway good luck with it all.
6t76t Featured By Owner Feb 7, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
I felt the same way all my life. Ever since I was a little girl, I've always dream of finding a boyfriend, getting married, and have kids. Most girls that I've seen on the internet, and real life said they don't want to get married and have children. But I have kept my childhood dream, until it'll come true. I have been an on and off relationship twice in secret, and most guys that I have close relationships with and that could have been my chance, usually end up in spoilage thanks to my classmates and my own mother with their mushy-gushy comments(which is my relationships are a secret), and we just end up staying friends. I hate it when it happens all the time, it's embarrassingly annoying. But I'm still dreaming of being in a relationship, and have a family one day, hopefully I will give my future children better treatment, so they won't have the same life that I have. Sure, I would like to be free as a bird, or even free as Sonic, but I want my own family to come along with me, so I won't feel alone, and plus, I want my blood line to go on forever. We shall continue finding our loved ones Elson, you're not alone. =)
Darkerilussions Featured By Owner Feb 5, 2012  Student Traditional Artist
i feel the same... but, i promise to myself to be alone forever.

and i never breaks promises! :iconfatsonplz:


dont worry, you find her :3
Nanko-Yuki-Haruno Featured By Owner Feb 4, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Awwww Elson....I hope you find that special someone. Believe me I know how you feel....
swifthaven Featured By Owner Feb 4, 2012
:) Elson, you speak words that I often think of myself. I went a long time "searching" and found myself attracted to people online more so than in real life.

For me, perhaps it is that I am somewhat shy in real life. And/or, perhaps my interests are so unique it takes using the internet to find people with similar interests to my own.

I know now that life sometimes takes turns you don't expect. I think the best thing you can do is be happy with what you have (sounds like you are). Which is A LOT easier said than done.

I won't abandon my dream. Someday I still want to meet you (hopefully at a future Summer of Sonic).

And, as always, I follow your artwork on here and try to understand you better. So don't stop posting your art. :P
Lorna-RoseFoX Featured By Owner Feb 1, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Love is found in endless ways
I never dreamed taht love would come in the form of American love from across the sea
friends for 5 years and met on DA then became bf and gf 2 years ago now getting married ^^

Don't go looking for love but be content as normal
love is one of those mysterious elements that seem to work its self to finding the hearts that match.

If have not mentioned getting married this summer July or August
got my wedding dress as my chap and me are collecting things early


Off topic
the most cutest plushiest ever seen


Hope that helps a little :huggle:
ElsonWong Featured By Owner Feb 1, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thanks for your feedback everyone so far! I really appreciate your time sharing your thoughts on the issue. Just letting you know that I'm feeling better and that I'm on track to living my life to the fullest. ;)

I hope to make a reply back to you all soon! :hug:
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