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How I Feel Today... by ElsonWong How I Feel Today... by ElsonWong
First and foremost, despite being a generally happy and outgoing person in real life (whether I'm at home with my family or at work with my colleagues), I feel that there's something in my brain telling me something otherwise.

I've only experienced this strange feeling in me for the past few nights. Why now?

I don't know... I know for sure that I'm living a very happy life. Financially I'm taken care of, I know I work hard to make a living (and work at an entertaining place where I get paid decently), I'm living with some of the best families around and I got friends from around the world who continue to inspire me in what they do.

So what has been missing in my life? Why do I feel like something is 'Black and White' at the moment?

I think I'm at an age where I'm starting to seriously consider getting a partner and be in relationship, get married and have family and kids (I'm going to turn 27 this year). But hold on a minute Elson, didn't you say you enjoy the single life? I do. But just lately I've been thinking about stuff... And it's weird why I'm feeling a little 'bittersweet' at the moment.

Is it a male instinct to feel the need to be with that someone special, a girl whom you can share with them your love and care for years to come? Is my mind telling me that I have a body that can be used to share pleasure with that girl and tell them just how thankful I am to be their one? Am I feeling like I want to be a family man and have kids that I can be proud to share with my family and my partners?


Big words Elson, but easier said than done, yes.

Anyways that's how I felt for the past few nights. But the question again comes to mind - why now? And more importantly why do I feel bittersweet about it?

Well I just find myself picky with the person I want to be with. And to quickly sum it up, I find that the girls I like and admire are pretty much beyond my geographical reach.

In other words the girls I find attracted to are overseas and it's all discovered upon through my time spent working on special hobbies and projects online (whether it be on deviantART, Youtube, Sonic community websites etc...).

What's bittersweet about it is I know it just won't likely to happen, even though I want to make something work - I just feel that from experience and from logic - it just won't work. I'm scared to even go there cuz I don't want to be someone to possibly hurt someone's feelings if things don't go according to plan. I lack real life 'relationship' experiences because I have yet to go out on a date yet - and that's a fact (and it's not because I don't want to, I just didn't find someone I find special yet here/locally).

But yeah that sketch is a reflection of what I've written for the past five to ten minutes, and strangely enough I feel a little happier expressing it for once.

Keep on inspiring everyone! There are some very special people out there and I just want to thank them for their creativity, brilliance and grace in just... Well... 'Sharing'.
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Maishul Featured By Owner Mar 31, 2012
I know the feeling T.T
I could get a girlfriend, but the problem is the girls here are sluts or they are obsessed with rave partys and smoking weed, and either loud and annoying or are just drama queens about every single thing.
I wish I had a girl who could touch my heart, who's sweet kind of charming, Y DO THEY NOT EXIST D:<
I know I'm only 15, but even if I didn't want a relationship, I would still be wondering, seriously, what happened to that sort? D:
So sometimes I think it just won't happen, even now, despite how much I dream for it, it seems to be just a fantasy, sometimes I think I may just give up on any sort of love, I'm not making "a big deal about it even though I'm young", but it's true right? What they've done to us teenagers? Geez x.x
EchoChase Featured By Owner Mar 15, 2012   Digital Artist
Have you ever thought about seeking out someone who is your opposite? Don't seek someone who has to like everything you like, just look for a few things you have in common. After all it's down to chemistry at the end of the day. I went out with my boyfriend because I knew we shared an interest in anime (well that and he said he liked me lol!!). The anime doesn't actually have much impact on our relationship because we actually went to the cinema to watch Prince of Persia which was a video game film which related to our interest in games. We now live together and whilst I like art, he likes games. I'm a rubbish cook but I'm better with the bills whereas he can cook brilliantly (which is perfect for me). We work together as a team enjoy each others company, sharing experiences regardless of our likes and dislikes and most of all we compromise. You always have to be willing to compromise!!

Relationships really aren't black and white and sometimes it's better to find people who are your opposite than someone who is your identical because frankly that can get very boring, very quickly. You also just have to get yourself out there and find someone, they won't find you if they don't know you exist.
ElsonWong Featured By Owner Mar 15, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Heya Angelina! First and foremost congrats on continuing a wonderful relationship with your partner! Secondly thanks for the practical advice. :)

I've heard this one many a time from my friend Adam - the quote that sums it up is "Opposites Attract". ^_^

I'm in the process of being open-minded now. In fact I'm rather keen on a girl at work but I just have to keep in touch with her outside of work times. Nevertheless thanks again for your feedback! ^^
EchoChase Featured By Owner Mar 17, 2012   Digital Artist
You should check with your work regulations and see if a relationship with another colleague is allowed or not. Most work places don't like it as it can cause many issues from potential thefts of stock/money or mixing home life issues to much with work. I'm not saying everyone's like that but from a companies point of view it can and does happen. If you Manager is happy with it then you're okay, usually better if you work in different departments so that you don't spend to much time interacting in work ours on a personal level.

Myself and my boyfriend work at the same store but we also work in different departments, our relationship is known by all other staff and the Manager is somewhat happy with it, we're smart enough to keep work and home life separate. However we can be told and moved to different stores if Head Office wanted. Still there's not much that they can do really other than that because not so long back open couple working in the same store. Having said that I'm still looking for a new job.

Anyway good luck with it all.
6t76t Featured By Owner Feb 7, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
I felt the same way all my life. Ever since I was a little girl, I've always dream of finding a boyfriend, getting married, and have kids. Most girls that I've seen on the internet, and real life said they don't want to get married and have children. But I have kept my childhood dream, until it'll come true. I have been an on and off relationship twice in secret, and most guys that I have close relationships with and that could have been my chance, usually end up in spoilage thanks to my classmates and my own mother with their mushy-gushy comments(which is my relationships are a secret), and we just end up staying friends. I hate it when it happens all the time, it's embarrassingly annoying. But I'm still dreaming of being in a relationship, and have a family one day, hopefully I will give my future children better treatment, so they won't have the same life that I have. Sure, I would like to be free as a bird, or even free as Sonic, but I want my own family to come along with me, so I won't feel alone, and plus, I want my blood line to go on forever. We shall continue finding our loved ones Elson, you're not alone. =)
Darkerilussions Featured By Owner Feb 5, 2012  Student Traditional Artist
i feel the same... but, i promise to myself to be alone forever.

and i never breaks promises! :iconfatsonplz:


dont worry, you find her :3
Nanko-Yuki-Haruno Featured By Owner Feb 4, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Awwww Elson....I hope you find that special someone. Believe me I know how you feel....
swifthaven Featured By Owner Feb 4, 2012
:) Elson, you speak words that I often think of myself. I went a long time "searching" and found myself attracted to people online more so than in real life.

For me, perhaps it is that I am somewhat shy in real life. And/or, perhaps my interests are so unique it takes using the internet to find people with similar interests to my own.

I know now that life sometimes takes turns you don't expect. I think the best thing you can do is be happy with what you have (sounds like you are). Which is A LOT easier said than done.

I won't abandon my dream. Someday I still want to meet you (hopefully at a future Summer of Sonic).

And, as always, I follow your artwork on here and try to understand you better. So don't stop posting your art. :P
Lorna-RoseFoX Featured By Owner Feb 1, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Love is found in endless ways
I never dreamed taht love would come in the form of American love from across the sea
friends for 5 years and met on DA then became bf and gf 2 years ago now getting married ^^

Don't go looking for love but be content as normal
love is one of those mysterious elements that seem to work its self to finding the hearts that match.

If have not mentioned getting married this summer July or August
got my wedding dress as my chap and me are collecting things early


Off topic
the most cutest plushiest ever seen


Hope that helps a little :huggle:
ElsonWong Featured By Owner Feb 1, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thanks for your feedback everyone so far! I really appreciate your time sharing your thoughts on the issue. Just letting you know that I'm feeling better and that I'm on track to living my life to the fullest. ;)

I hope to make a reply back to you all soon! :hug:
Tonythunder Featured By Owner Feb 1, 2012
glad you're feeling better man :huggle:
EliseBellatrix Featured By Owner Feb 1, 2012
I'm glad you're feeling better. I was a little worried! :aww:
Ja-The-Shadow-Hunter Featured By Owner Feb 1, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
dadu79 Featured By Owner Feb 1, 2012
:dummy: :turbopoke: :turbopoke: :turbpoke: <3
Doggshort Featured By Owner Feb 1, 2012  Student Filmographer
I'm like you, but in a different way, last year, some girls in my year, they want me to find a boyfriend, i don't want to because i'm too young, but i can't reject it because first of all; i'm a nice girl, and second; they are good people, i was so uncomfortable, i didn't know people would go on caring me about it, it was scary, my life was full of great thing, and i achieve them, but the only that came to my head and of that also of not achieving is a relationship, i don't want that, it's bad enough for doing work, i know how you feel, maybe you should think about what you want, if the relationship is making you feel uncomfortable and of that you would think of making a mistake, then take a break from all of that and continue your happy and exciting life
russellrock Featured By Owner Jan 31, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
I find that sweet, how you let your emotion out through a picture, even if it's simple it has meaning. Don't worry though, your not alone on how you feel. Heh, you remind me of my uncle, and he's actually 27 and single yet. He and I are like bro and sis, telling each other things we want to talk about and helping each other out. He told me how now, he is starting to have that same deep feeling like you are. My uncle's friends have kids already and are married, some married at young ages like 24 or 23. I'm gonna tell you what I told him; You will, absolutly will find that someone!!! She'll come to you, and you may not notice at first but you and her will become more then friends, slowly or quickly. Love is just mysterious that way, you may never notice until the right, perfect moment.
(I'm probably one of the youngest to comment, eh fourteen. I don't got alot of experience, since I'm learning from friend's mistakes we are too young to date and all, so I'm alone. I hope it gives you some hope. And I hope you and my uncle fine that special someone...) :heart:
StratossTheEchidna Featured By Owner Jan 31, 2012
Heh do not worry Mr. Wong it is indeed a period in our lives, can tell about the feeling because i just came out of it myself, I got my own resolves on it bu in the end the feeling was the same, "I'm feeling lonely, and at some point I feel like there is the need to settle down, make a family be a guard and a guide"
Is not something that easy as you mention, I mean I found someone I thought the right one very far from where I live, but after a year of relationship it had to end u.u, anyways don't worry because that bittersweet feeling is even enjoyable, it makes you feel alive, sad because you feel you have something very important missing, but in the end it means you are aware of what you want and who you are. and about the overseas thing, you never know if youll find the heart you are meant to share with in a tiny and different coloured package.

Go with the flow man, go with the flow, because when the river has to reach a lake, youll find yourself in the sea without noticing it.

Hahaha I think I had you in skype but hell I havent even installed it in this comp XD.

Thanks for sharing those thoughts btw, they are not easy so yeah it takes guts e.e'.
SONICFAN18 Featured By Owner Jan 31, 2012
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Smashpersona Featured By Owner Jan 31, 2012
Im going threw the same thing buddy
Emily-Young Featured By Owner Jan 31, 2012  Hobbyist Filmographer
Well, if you don't see any girls you like where you live...Then why not move to places that have the girls you like? If you live near them, you'll have time to get to know them and such, and then maybe one day, they'll move back with you to Australia. Or, if you can handle being away from your family, then I guess you would stay with her where she lives.

But of course you guys would have to decide what to do, and where to live, together. :heart:

Hope you find someone.
ElsonWong Featured By Owner Jan 31, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I have thought about the things you've mentioned already - it will be tough to go either way. I'm confident that I'll find a way to make it work should I find some that I love beyond Australia. :)
Emily-Young Featured By Owner Feb 1, 2012  Hobbyist Filmographer
Well, I'm glad you're determined to find a way to make it work. =)
Art-in-heart4va Featured By Owner Jan 30, 2012  Student
kevintheman Featured By Owner Jan 30, 2012  Hobbyist Photographer
I understand how you feel Elson. In fact, an offline friend of mine whom I've known since I was little is going through the exact same thing. He feels empty without a partner and feels worse known that people around him are already in a relationship, engaged or married. For various reasons he's been struggling to get into a relationship himself.

Anyway, it's perfectly normal to feel nervous about the possibly of someone being hurt, but a relationship involves taking a risk, and as nerve racking as it can be, one's got to go out to take that risk if they want to move forward.

The best advice I can give is to let things happen, and eventually you may find that special someone. There's never a set rule that ome must be in a relationship by a certain age.
ElsonWong Featured By Owner Jan 31, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thanks for the advice Kev! Indeed these kind of situations involve a degree of risk and strangely enough I feel that I'm ready to take some for the sake of finding that special someone at present. :)
kevintheman Featured By Owner Jan 31, 2012  Hobbyist Photographer
You're welcome, and good for you! I wish you all the best of luck!
HappyAggro Featured By Owner Jan 30, 2012
Usually the one is where you least expect it, so I wouldn't give up hope. Just gotta put yourself out there. :D
Merryan Featured By Owner Jan 30, 2012  Student General Artist
"Everything will in due time" ...
Do not be afraid of what is not known, and not just for your situation, everyone at some point in his life felt the black and white world. The "loneliness" is an emotion that no one wants to feel, but comes to us without warning, but time passes and takes those feelings, to renew all things, hope, knowing that you have friends and family for when the person is expected.

Sorry if I'm nosy, but I felt the world so once, not like you, and a very wise person told me: "Everything happens when it has to happen." This person inspired me to draw (you get it right or not is my lack of experience ^^; ). Never let doubts cloud your world, you'll see the sun always comes out for everyone.

I say this because you add creativity, you are someone full of ideas and inspiration, I do not take this wrong please :aww:

(Sorry my english is really bad ^^; )
Tonythunder Featured By Owner Jan 30, 2012
I believe it's the right time to find that special someone,I mean,who knows,maybe you'll find her within this year,maybe next year,it might come soon
BTW This pic looks very beautiful! The emotion that DS is feeling is very sweet :aww:
Kassanovas Featured By Owner Jan 30, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Wow,i've had that same thing,that feeling that living financially well with family and friends
is suddenly not enough anymore and that something big is missing.
For me,that feeling comes and goes from time to time but
the lack of a partner is a problem that's forever on my mind.
It hit me hard on one particular day last year,made me draw this>[link]
Actually made me feel better.=)
AvlynnTheFox Featured By Owner Jan 30, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
awwww, well you should at least try to look. There has to be someone out there for everyone
EliseBellatrix Featured By Owner Jan 30, 2012
I'm understanding you so much Elson... Everything that you've said I felt it until a few years ago. Everytime that I liked a boy he had already a girlfriend or was unreachable to me. Yes, I'm picky too with that special one. Just like you! And I was feeeling the need to share some love to someone with a special connection with me, who loved me too and was near from I live if it was possible! XD I was starting to think that my love was going to come from overseas but... suddenly I met someone who I didn't like inmediately, but after 6 months suddenly I felt something that shook my body, just like a switch which activated something new inside me and then I started to understand that that person was special to me. Today he's still my boyfriend. He's not a Sonic fan like you or me but I can live with it.

What I mean is that don't desperate. Don't be obsessed with the age of 30. It's a wonderful and attractive age for a man! :aww: And especially pay attention around you but don't force you to search for a girl. God will put her in front of you, maybe under a light (the sun, for example :giggle:) and then somehow you'll know that girl is who you'll share the rest of your life with. It's not only an a mount of nice words. I'm telling you this because is what my boyfriend always says when he remembers the first time he saw me. Even I can tell you about a friend of mine who the first time he saw her husband she thought "Someday I'll marry this guy".

Love is very mysterious and you'll never know where will appear that special one.

You're feeling melancolic and you say that it's something very strange on you, almost something unthinkable. I think you're reaching the top of something. I can't explain what. But I can say the same year I met my boyfriend (2008) happened to me special and weird things (one of the most special ones was that you spoke to me for the first time! :hug:) Maybe 2012, which is a leap-year too,will be your special/weird year! :giggle:

Love :hug:
NessaCity Featured By Owner Jan 30, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
You'll be okay. We promise. Hugs forever to the guy that inspires so many of us to keep drawing and just being us. Anyone would be so lucky to be with you. As a random stranger, let me tell you this: You're one of the nicest people on Deviantart. I'm sure that once you find the will to get up and at it, things will go smoothly from there, hopefully. And it's okay to be picky. It saves you from giving your all to someone who won't give you theirs. We all love you so much, mister Elson. C: We really do, and even though we're all strangers, we want you to be happy because you've inspired the lot of us! You really have. So keep doing what you're doing. Never stop. You have to make yourself that promise, that you'll keep being the Elson that we all know and love.

Keep that chin up. It'll get better.

"Nothing starts until you take action". And you know what that's from, and who said it. I hope. C:
UltimateGameMaster Featured By Owner Jan 30, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
You too, huh?
Twi-Chandelure Featured By Owner Jan 30, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
*giggles* I'm actually talking to you,squee I am like your big fan on here and Youtube xD!! :happybounce: Anywhooo...-

I've put a lot of thought about this picture and what you wrote on the description,also at school. So far what I read on the comments they were really long 'cause they put a lot of effort to it,and I'm gonna do this same thing!

__Love is a deep feeling to everyone,and what I may say could be agreeable or not but it is very hard to find someone that you want. I'm in a relationship right now and I'm only in my first teen years (if you know what I mean). Most boys/men that I've seen are only just the "Outer-beauty" people,they only like the features on the women -- women do the same too,they want guys that are hot and sexy,wanting to just go ahead and have sex just to get HIV or whatever. Enough that part ^^; your about to be 27 soon,if I got that correct, and maybe in your mind your ready for looking for a life with that special girl and to take care of the kids once you guys know a LOT about each other...but love is very hard to control when it comes to; marriage. I won't get to that part 'cause I'm scared to make you more nervous! OnO Hehe...
__I don't know if this will help you to find the girl you want but I did this,I sorta 'list' the things down what I want a guy to be...or at least find one that is like that. I'll give a little example: Lets say I want a guy that is Christian,Loyal,Caring,and looks into the Inner-beauty of people. So I start going through my school life a couple years then I go to college,but I never found the guy I wanted yet until your friends with a guy that is like that...but you never notice until he asked you out. Do you understand this so far? Even though I was saying it from my girl-preview,but was it understandable? I hope it is. Also I got this little quote from my friend's mom; he told me "It doesn't matter what: age,height or grade your lover is in,it matter that you love'em." I may disagree on the age part cause...on the internet...its a like a 13 with a 20 year old? That is VERY out of league ^^; when you want to date someone on the internet. I really do hope this will help you or maybe a little...I'm sorry if I ever went off topic...I'm only in 7th grade soooo...:XD:; Hehe...
Sonicfan101 Featured By Owner Jan 30, 2012
I used to feel this way as well, Elson. But whatever happens, you need to wait for the right one to come along. She's out there for you, and any woman would be very fortunate to have a happy and caring man like yourself. :) As I said, I felt the same way before after a sort of nasty breakup I dealt with. But I waited, no matter how heartbroken I was. At times it felt hopeless, and I almost gave up hope. But soon enough in 2010, the love of my life came along in ~DreamTora. :heart:

Keep your head up, Elson, love is meant for anyone and you're no exception. ;) Also if it helps at all, we're all here for you as your friends to comfort you during any rough times and emotions you're dealing with. Good luck, buddy, I'll be rooting for you. ^^
Rally-the-Cheetah Featured By Owner Jan 30, 2012
Hey dude keep your chin up, if anyone can find someone nice it's you ;) . As for relationship advice and such, sorry I'm not all that helpful ^^; . I got lucky, REALLY lucky. When I was 20 and attending college I felt much like you do now; see both my parents and my grandparents got married when they were in their 20's and seeing as I didn't even have so much as a boyfriend or had ever been on a date at the time I felt like I might never find anyone just for me. It's sad and it makes you start questioning yourself. You wonder if maybe you're not the person you think you are. You feel bad because when you sit and think about it you realize you have no bloody idea how to go about finding someone. It doesn't help that the media throws all these unreal expectations at you as well. So you wait... and wait.... and pray someone comes along and smiles at you. It's the waiting that's the hardest, you wonder if that moment will ever come when it'll all pay off. Well I can't say it works for everyone but it did for me. Against all odds I found my husband.
Now note, I lived in Eugene at the time and he lived in Oregon City (about a 2 hour drive away). I met him because my very best friend hooked us up. She was dating the best friend of my husband, who also lived in Oregon City. Her boyfriend didn't have a car and didn't really have a way of coming to Eugene to see my friend so he asked his friend (my husband) if he'd give him a ride. Now 2 hours is a long drive and my husband wasn't too keen on driving all that way just to be the third wheel in some date his friend was on. So to sweeten the deal my friend and her boyfriend decided to match us up. Apparently we had much in common and they figured we'd at least be friends.
Well the first meeting was... Awkward. I had NO idea what to expect and didn't really think the meeting would get me anywhere. So I just decided to more or less be myself and just hang out. The two of us played videogames (SA2 Battle and SSBM) and that was it. No fancy dinner, no dressing up nothing. And I still fell for him and him for me. Well maybe fell is to strong a word... I liked him that's true. I found him cute and funny and felt at ease around him. It was true what my friend had said, we were alike and because of that we became fast friends.
Looking back on it all I think that's what really got the relationship going, how similar we were. Also note that I feel that acting like yourself is big as well. He wasn't trying to impress me at first, and I wasn't trying to impress him. We just acted as ourselves and figured if things didn't go well it was no big deal. And we liked that about each other because, when at ease, we acted more or less the same way. Now when you think about it, that seems very important. You shouldn't have to act like someone you're not around the person you're interested in, it just doesn't make sense. Think to the end game, you're going to be LIVING with this person, that means if you're acting you're going to have to do it for the rest of your life. Oh and that's something else that I feel sped the relationship, we decided to live together to see how it would work out. See he ended up moving down to Eugene with his friend (my best friends boyfriend) so the two of them could be closer to us. Then he decided to move again into another apartment with me. At this point we were considered a couple but we wanted to make sure it would all work out, so we decided to live together. We figured if there was anything about one another the other didn't like we'd find out REAL fast. It was exciting and we really got closer because of it. I loved having our own place and customizing it with all the video game posters we had. We also started assigning chores for one another. Since I worked at the grocery store I'd often buy the groceries. He'd handle the bills and tell me when I needed to transfer him money. Whoever got home first would cook, etc. etc. Teamwork my friend, team work.
So, yeah, I think I'll stop for now. I already have given you a lot to read and I'm not 100% sure if it's even that helpful ^^; . Still I want you to stay positive and strong. Speaking from a girls perspective I think you come off as a very attractive male. True I guess that doesn't necessarily help you find the right person for you so here's something else: you have friends, A LOT of friends. Who knows, maybe one of them has a friend that might like to meet up with you =) .
red-ysetgo Featured By Owner Jan 30, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I can't really say anything that :iconblazecake: hasn't already said. :)

And I'm not familiar with this kind of thing, so I'm sorry I don't have much to say. But keep looking Elson, you'll find someone. :)
Good luck.

Well I just find myself picky with the person I want to be with. And to quickly sum it up, I find that the girls I like and admire are pretty much beyond my geographical reach.

That is rather true, since you're in Australia. ): But I'm sure you will find someone. You're a great person, and continue to inspire me daily. I'm sure someone else out there will agree with me.
YoshiDaisyFriends Featured By Owner Jan 30, 2012
I know how you feel, it does take alot to get to through it. But don't worry, things WILL get better and you should never give up! :dummy: i hope that's inspiring to people...
Lilmont98 Featured By Owner Jan 30, 2012
I wish you luck on finding that one girl because I know its possible to find that girl you want to have for I've already found that girl and she means the world to me and is everything I hoped a girl would be. So I wish you dear luck for I love your art and your stuff and you deserve a good girl.
SevenColors-Alice Featured By Owner Jan 30, 2012  Student General Artist
Hey Elson..

I totally feel how you feel right now. I've actually bottled it up for sometime now, in fear to show my issue. What you've just shown me is quite relating to a problem I am dealing with, which is almost driving me insane for a while.

Love is such a crazy thing to deal with. Even though I am so young, there have been so many ups and downs with love, that I almost regret everything I've done. I've never dated anyone locally for the reason that I could never share interest with a man, preferably my interest is as well Sonic the Hedgehog himself. It is hard to find the perfect one. Most I've dated were online, but through my experience it can be dreadful.

I actually miss my old self. I used to be the happy go-lucky type of girl during the time I was single even throughout my life troubles. My life had gotten worst though, I felt desperate to be with someone. People loved me, I accepted them.. But now I've learned that love can't be truly understood, but to be experienced between both partners together.

I guess ever since I've become single I've grown a little happier because in all honest we did not have much in common, and I didn't have a strong care and love for him. As much as that sounds really horrible in my part, but it is better to be honest and truthful about it, rather than holding it longer and making it seem worst in the future.

To be honest I don't really know why I'm going out and making this comment about love itself. I've just been hurt from many guys, I can see what you mean when you say you don't want to go out with someone because of the problems that could arise when things wouldn't work out.

But love has no boundaries you see. You will find the perfect one for you. They'll do whatever it takes to be with you, even if you were to date online and meet for real. You just have to wait. I know you've been single for such a long time, you get this bittersweet feeling of wanting to be with someone. Sometimes it is better to wait then to rush into a relationship. I've learned that a lot through experience. I guess I'm fortunate for this since I am so young still, that I can now see through this.

Besides.. We all love you as well :heart:
For the many things you've done and your inspirations. I'd hate to see you grow upset because of love. Maybe if you do have interest in someone, talk to them at least. Make it start out small and grow to become something big.

Thanks though for this.. I felt something bottled inside me for a while, felt better to have written this to you. Even if we've just became friends, I've felt we've been friends for years, much like we've said earlier.

Hope you feel better through this, many of us including me are supporting you all the way through out your life. :thumbsup:
ElsonWong Featured By Owner Jan 30, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist

Well what can I say? Thanks for sharing this feedback with me - it is not only brave of you to do so but it is also something that had to be done no? = ) We're only human to express our inner most deepest of feelings from time to time, and that raw emotion is something that can only be accumulated and expressed through the most unique of circumstances.

I'm intrigued about what you've gone through BlazeCake, all of these experiences you've had in the past, I feel the need to know about them, to get to know you better - after all it's like what you said - "Maybe if you do have interest in someone, talk to them at least. Make it start out small and grow to become something big". I really like what you said there... :)

But yeah thank you so much for taking the time to write this out, you feel better in the process and I know how that feels because I've already expressed what I wanted (complete with a sketched piece of myself in my cartoon persona).

And you know... For some reason, I feel the same way too about you. It's like we only just became friends but it's like we knew each other for years... "Strange isn't it?", as Sonic from Sonic OVA would say... *thumbs up with a smile*
SevenColors-Alice Featured By Owner Jan 30, 2012  Student General Artist

It's no problem at all. I felt it was appropriate to say this to you to help ease the feelings you're going through. Ever since I broke up, I've been feeling the same a little. Such human emotions can lead us to many things. Sometimes you just have to embrace what we has humans can offer through emotions. I guess that's quite a beauty about human nature. Sometimes it's not even understood, but expressing it does seem to help out. Never be afraid to express them as many people have said to me.

Well hey.. Anytime we're free to chat on Skype. I'm more than welcome to get conversations going on :) much like we have during the small bit.

It is strange.. You can say it may be a start of a great friendship, right? :) And keep that smile of yours. No need to be feeling down, yes? :hug:
ElsonWong Featured By Owner Jan 30, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
:hug: I won't be BlazeCake, not with a comment like this from you. ;) I'll see you on Skype.
SevenColors-Alice Featured By Owner Jan 30, 2012  Student General Artist
arkiviste Featured By Owner Jan 30, 2012  Student General Artist
If I said I know what you feel, I'd be lying, but I do understand what you're going, I wish I could help you with advice but I unfortunate don't have much life experience in the subject. Maybe it's a search for a greater purpose in life or maybe it's just instinct. What can't be denied is that its a real feeling. All I can really do is pray everything works out for you. Remember you're an inspiration to a lot of us here! :)
ElsonWong Featured By Owner Jan 30, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
No no that's fine, even feedback like this is comforting and something to be thankful for. ;)

I'm actually all good right now but I just wanted to share with you all the idea that I'm looking for someone pretty special in my life, and that by doing that, it is not going to be an easy path to take.

Nevertheless thanks for letting me how you feel and that I'm an inspiration to alot of people here - it's what I aim to do. = )
nara-chan Featured By Owner Jan 30, 2012
Awwww Elson. *hugs tight* I know that feel bro.
I'm 23 now and even though I'm fairly young, a lot of the women in my family already had kids between 19 - 21.

In 1 way, I'm happy to not have to deal with that but yet I'm a little sadden that I'm single.

I do want to settle down and have a family of my own but I can't even get my life straight with a job and my loans and my art. Sad Ansley..

And any guy I like is either across country, in Canada, or overseas sadly. And usually these are the guys I prefer over what I usually get which is the dramaqueens or clingers or just troublesome.

Real life is tough. There's more chance things can go the wrong way. Online and long distance when serious at our age takes a lot more commitment and bravery I believe. Especially if you're far away and after a year or so between visits or even phone calls or skype calls, decide to move together.

Anyone can do anything so don't worry about it. ^_^ I say just go with your heart. People get hurt all the time. As long as you don't think about what bad will happen and only good things, everything works out.

:) I believe in you. After all, you're my inspiration and I'm thankful to have met you online and in person.

Wow I feel like a hypocrite after saying all that... LOL!!
ElsonWong Featured By Owner Jan 30, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Heya Ansley! :hug:

Nah don't say that! There's nothing hypocrite about what you said so far, I really appreciate the honesty. ;)

That's the issue I have right now... Most of these special people that I admire are overseas and nowhere near Australia... XD I feel that I need to find somebody who has this connection with 'Sonic the Hedgehog' - crazy as it may sound but he's been a huge influence to many people for over 20 years...

Anyways thanks for sharing your feedback and it was really cool to catch up with you again in San Francisco! I will never forget the experience me and Jason had dining at the restaurant your worked in! ^_~
Stelaris Featured By Owner Jan 30, 2012  Professional General Artist
I totally understand you Elson.... it's happening to me the same, the past days... speccially in the night. Also I did a quick color sketch expressing my feelings about it. =( I know that is pretty hard... but don't force your heart to find the love. You will find it when it comes the respective time... and the respective moment... you are younger than you think.
And, in my personal opinion, you must find someone that can share the same future you want, about your comics and projects. If she don't have the same future aspiration or something similar... at the end you will end your relationship. It happens more often than you think. You ned to think not only about your hapiness, your future is important too.
:hug: cheer up, don't loose the hope, you have the spirit and charisma to find a wonderful girl, and if I think deep about it, I don't know why the heck a girl still doesn't fell in love with you!! you are so cool man! xD art talented, funny, joker, athletic, awesome :giggle:
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